Saturday, April 17, 2010

Sometimes life is too fast and othertimes too slow...

We are in the middle of April, the dreaded month of the year for me. I pour myself into all kinds of projects during April to busy myself crazy. It does help me some. I have been working on planting around the outside of the house. This was always Warren's area, but I was determined to make green grow!!! I do not have a green thumb, it's really more black. But I have found that I can grow ivy and hostas. Well at least that's a start. I must look really sad out there because my neighbors have been offering various things like plants, gardening tools, mulch and so forth. I guess I probably looked a little crazy putting the mulch in our little red wagon because my wheelbarrel was broken so I was offered the use of a wheelbarrel. I was fairly proud of myself as I have transplanted several plants and planted new plants. I also dug out a small garden bed along the back of the house and cut down some small dead trees along the back of the yard. I hope all my plants survive! I also have been taking a personal training class, I'm not sure what I was thinking there, but at least I feel stronger (at least that's what I tell myself when I'm on the heating pad and taking ibuprofen). We celebrated Warren's birthday last weekend by getting our balloons, writing our notes on them and taking them to the cemetery to let them go, then we always go to Texas Roadhouse (Warren's favorite restaurant). The kids actually love doing it, it's a time to remember daddy in a fun way and it not be so sad at least for them. They also love TX Roadhouse and love steak and ribs. We also started the little man in T-ball again. He has much more confidence this year and has discovered sliding. He slides for every base and every ball. Needless to say he is filthy. We have so enjoyed the beautiful weather God has given us this spring and I love that the two youngest go out to "adventuring". They pack their little backpacks and walk through the yard looking for sticks, birds and various nature things. It's really cute. My oldest on the other hand is my garden helper (I think she has her daddy's green thumb). I was given the opportunity to go hear Lisa Welchel speak. What a wonderful blessing! It was a wonderful night of encouragement. God always sends me what I need at the right time. I don't understand the ways of God and why He has allowed me to be in this position in life, but He continues to show me He is with me and watching over us, even when I can't feel Him. It's just that sometimes it would really by nice if God has skin on...Happy Birthday to my Warren, I love you!!

7 comments:

Jenn Basham said...

so nice to see you blogging again!! We are continuing to remember you and your family and to pray.....

withpatience said...

I have a black thumb too, Tana;-) Last year though, we found that I can grow tomatoes in one of those topsy turvy things--they are wonderful;-) I pray for you often and love reading about the things you do to keep Warren part of your lives--that's so important. A line to one of my favorite songs is "Your will cannot lead me where your grace will not keep me"--you are such a picture of this! Have a great day!

Anonymous said...

I keep up with your through Jana and knew this was a tough time for you so prayed for God's strength. May God continue to watch over you each day!
Rebecca
PS I do not have a green thumb either! Not sure what I would be able to grow so I think you're doing great!!!!

Natasha said...

Hi Tana! Love to you....
We aren't actually supposed to start planting here in MN yet, because of the chance of cold weather still, but it's been a beautiful spring! I haven't done much in my gardens in the past, but maybe this year? :) I did get them all cleaned out--well, all but one. I'm hoping to get some new things planted this year, but we will see if I actually follow through. If you have time, post some pictures of your yard or let us know how your garden is coming--maybe that will remind me to check mine every once in awhile! :)

Robin (Shisler) Greiner said...

I hadn't been on your family site for some time, so I read the last four (back to Sept). My heart aches for you Tana. I can't imagine the depth of loss. However, I have watched a friend go through the loss of her husband, and I've seen her wander in a very barren land, trusting God, but very lost and lonely. She's starting to emerge back into life, wounded, but stronger. I pray you will too, Tana. God isn't always understandable. But maybe if He were, He wouldn't be God. One of my favorite songs says, "When you don't understand, when you can't see His plan, when you can't trace His hand, trust His heart!" He is good. I pray you will be able to hold onto that. And I pray He will be close to you today. Love, Robin

Angie's Ad Lib said...

Tana,

I, also, have a black thumb. I love that you're getting out there and giving it a try. Good for you! I hope it's something you'll be able to enjoy.

Thanks for keeping us up on how you're doing. I check back every so often to find out if there is anything new to pray for.

Thoughts and prayers with you and the kids,
Angie

Anonymous said...

Nice to get an update. Still thinking of you and praying for you all.

Ryan again